But it was worth it.
The last two days, I attended a “City Stories” workshop organised as part of the “City of Stories” series by The British Council. Idiot that I am, I did not read the workshop description too carefully but submitted an application. I was one of the fortunate ones to get a place in the workshop. Fortunate because the workshop – in fact, all the workshops in the series – was over-subscribed. So, yes, I was one of the fortunate ones, not just to get a place in the workshop, but it was my first choice of workshop.
When I told a writing friend I got a place, she said something along the lines of “how exciting, especially the walking tour.”
Walking tour?
A couple of other friends, including one who also got a place in the workshop, confirmed the walking tour.
Walking tour?
I went back to read the workshop description. (Yes, this is a little like getting a new gadget and trying to get it to work before finally taking out the user’s manual to read it. But I digress … )
Yes, there was a walking tour in the workshop, but it would be on the second day, not first.
The first day was spent in the cool confines of the British Council examination room. The 12 of us – 13, including the workshop leader; 14, including the course facilitator who sometimes sat in – took up a section of the huge room, and all day, other people would walk in to go into one of the other rooms connected to this huge room.
The first day, we wrote a lot, and we read some – not just read, but would take turns to read aloud, passages from selected extracts about cities, and writings about cities, for discussion.
There was some talk about the the walking tour the next day, particularly if we were all going out in a group, in pairs, or alone.
Came the second day, and I was pretty nervous. Maybe I should beg to be exempted from it. I have a valid health reason.
The first writing exercise was just to loosen us up, with various questions that included “What can I see in front of me?”, “What can I hear?”, “What can I taste?”, “What can I feel?”
This is what I wrote for the last question …
“I can feel anticipation – of the walk ahead … anxiety – where will I be sent, and can I handle it, will I do a good job of the walk?”
As it turned out, we were given various guidelines for the walk, and a map of KL, but they were just guidelines. We didn’t have to follow the guidelines. Something went off inside me when I heard of the places we could visit for the walk.
Chinatown
Something awoke in me. Something I’d not remembered for more than 30 years. Something I plan to be writing about from now on, writing much more about. Perhaps to make up for the 30 over years of neglect.
My anxiety was unfounded. I enjoyed the walk. Although the morning had been very hot, by the time of the walk, it was cooler, or maybe it felt that way because I was enjoying myself so much. But I did look up at the sky and thinking it wasn’t blazing searing hot.
By the end of the day, I had to rush off to meet my cousin in Petaling Jaya. I could feel the beginning of what I’d been worrying about. I offered up a prayer that I would not feel sick during the train ride, which was a possibility as I would be in a small space with other, possibly sweaty, bodies. But I arrived at the destination station without wanting to throw up, offered up a word of thanks as soon as I stepped out of the train, and picked up my car to go and meet my cousin.
He’d brought his mother to visit my mother. It was a lovely visit, two old friends touching hands, and my aunt, who has sight problems, commenting “she doesn’t feel thin.”
I was feeling well enough to go on to the next part of my evening’s plans – dinner at 1 Utama. I ate at Old Asia, and had the Vietnamese (something) shoulder of lamb. I told myself to enjoy it (which I did), even though I might throw it up later.
Later, at home, the thing of the back of my head was pushing itself forward. But I was home, a safe place to feel ill in.
Sometime in the middle of the night, I woke and got up for a little while, and knew I had to take a couple of Ponstans and take a cold pack back to bed with me.
This morning, I didn’t feel too good, but I was at home, and decided to take it easy for the day. It’s one of the many perks of working from home, not having to go into an office, and being able to re-arrange my schedule to accommodate my body.
I was out in the sun yesterday, it was part of a workshop. I’m not supposed to be out in the sun, especially not towards the middle of the day with the sun at its damnest hottest. I was laid low the day after (today), but it was worth it. I’m glad I didn’t beg to be exempted from the walking tour; otherwise, I would not have been reminded of a very important part of my childhood that I somehow have put aside and never tapped into for my writing.
I am not supposed to be out in the sun because of migraine tendencies and also because of my lupus. Today was the price paid for yesterday’s walking tour, but heck, it was worth it!